Marketing Major Student.
Eating. Cheese. Chocolates. Yogurts and Ice Creams. Pastries. Pasta and Pizza. Musically inclined. PARAMORE! Anime. Korean Dramas and songs. Swimming. Traveling. Singing. Adventures and Challenges. Two Broke Girls.
David Archuleta. Taylor Swift.
My secret dream is to be a recording artist/model/tennis player. HAHA! . :D I have tons of things I want to do someday: to travel around Europe and Korea, write a book, manage my own business and to try bungee jumping and sky diving. Yipee! :)))))
BE YOURSELF. DON'T MIND WHAT OTHERS MIGHT SAY. AS LONG AS YOU KNOW YOURSELF AND YOU ARE HAPPY, YOU'LL BE OKAY. :)
He smiled at her. That was the very first time he set his eyes on her, completely staring at her attractiveness; adoring the length of her eyelashes, the tip of her nose; admiring her every moves. He was fascinated, intoxicated, captivated.
“It must’ve been the smile that eclipsed the sun,” he told himself. The realizations just came to him by then. He was in love. He sighed with gladness. Relieved.
He confessed. She smiled. He was so nervous and excited all at the same time. His hands trembling. He looked at her. She looked at him. She smiled again. His heart melted. He took her hands. She gave it wholeheartedly. Their hands both shaking. They laughed.
All the long walks and the long talks, they enjoyed it together. They traveled through the pages of time holding each other hands and heart and dreams. They both felt like they’re inseparable; both overflowing with extreme happiness.
Seasons change and so do we. She learned how to live her life for him. He learned how to live his life for himself and for the new love he found. She gave him her all - her faith, her trust, herself - but to him, that was nothing.
What she once thought was forever just ended. What he once thought was forever with her suddenly changed. He coped up with the abrupt changes in his life, but those changes slowly killed the girl who once became his world.
He started establishing his forever with the new love he found; she’s starting her life again with the ending she just found.
He left her, drained her down. It’s the exact opposite of what he promised; exact opposite of what he said during their private moments. There was something wrong in the mirror that didn’t reflect what she thought he was. Disappointed, hurt…mad. She learned how to feel distaste towards herself.
What she had lost, she want it back. Not him nor the love he used to gave her, but her faith in love, her old self. She want it all back, but she can’t. She just can’t. Helpless. Hopeless. Her light shone without anything to shine for, and there was something about her wasted usefulness which made her feel sorry for herself.
“Happy endings aren’t real. True love has no endings,” she murmured.
He pushed the start button but left the music playing. Now she’s facing the music alone and she knew…she knew she must stop it from playing.
Halos isang taon ko rinsilang hindi nakita. Ang saya lang makasama ang mga totoong kaibigan. Wala ka ng pakialam sa kung anong itsura mo - walang suklay-suklay at pulbo-pulbo. Sila ang mga taong may tenga at pusong nakikinig. MAHAL KO SILA! SOBRA! Walang tatalo sa SUPER FRIENDS! ♥
Yung malaman mong sila na. Yung malaman mong para sa kanya, wala lang lahat yung nangyari sa inyo. Yung kahit na anong gusto mong gawin, hindi mo ma-save yung sarili mo. Hindi mo maibalik sa dati yung talagang ikaw, kasi may nawala na. Wala kang magagawa para maibalik yun. Walang gamot na makapagpapabalik ng dati.
Yung akala mo concerned sya kaya nya ginawa yon. Pero hindi.
Yung wala kang makausap.
Yung wala kang mapagkatiwalaang taong hindi ka huhusgahan.
Masakit.
Hindi dahil parang kawawa ka o ano. Masakit kasi.. wala na yung dating ikaw.
If I could only turn back the time, I wouldn’t push you away.
I forced you to hate me. I caused you so much pain. I was so selfish and immature back then.
Your words were never intend to hurt - they only meant well. But, I took it the hard way.
Maybe, there are things too big to say sorry for. And maybe, it’s too late to let you know that I’m really, really, terribly sorry. I can’t take back what I’ve already said. I can’t make the pain go away. That, I do know.
You’ve been true to me, you always have. You’re the most sincere person I’ve ever met. And I respect you for that.
Those times when you told me you were so happy that I love you, I believe you, I feel the same. Those times when you told me you want to spend the rest of your life with me, I believe you, I feel the same. Do you remember? We used to talk about what the future hold for us. We used to plan for our family. You used to draw what our dream home would look like - a house with big glass windows and a wooden swing resting in our vast, green garden where our children could play. I loved watching you sketching our dream. We fancy establishing our charmed life together.
I love it when you hug me, for your embrace, I can be who I am without any hesitations, I can dream, I can soar, I can cry. You used to kiss me on my forehead, you used to enveloped me in your arms. You used to tell me what your greatest fears are - you can’t imagine a life without me and you won’t take the pain of me being away from you and that you would die. I miss the long text messages, the never-ending phone calls, your voice when you sing for me, you, being petty around me. I miss all of your words of wisdom and your I love you’s with such honest confidence. Gone were those days.
Those times when you told me you love me, I believe you, I feel the same. I still do. There’s a part of me wishing we could still be together. I know, that’s impossible.
So now, I am just hopeful i would see your smile, if ever we bump into each other again, just like highschool days. Just flash me that smile. Don’t you know your smile can take me to the happiest place on earth? Enough to leave me feel giddy all day. But, I don’t have the courage yet. I don’t think I can take the sight of you hating me.
It’s all clear to me now, what you have done, you did it for my sake. And this time, I want to give you something that will do you good.
I wish you well. I wish you all the best things life has to offer. I wish for your success on your career; I know your artistic hands and creative mind will take you a long way. I will always pray for your happiness and for the love you always deserve.
I’ll make this clear,
I will always be here.
I love you.
I do. I do.
Sorry. Nothing’s changed. It has been five months now since we parted ways and I still long for you. I know in time, I will learn not to. But for now, just let me love you. And I will stop wishing for more.
If I could turn back the time, I wouldn’t push you away. That’s the dumbest thing I’ve ever done. I wish I could undo it, but I can’t.
